The business of spiritual direction feels frozen and stuck in the mud. I do not want to visit the back side of the website, I do not want to update my spam protection, I do not want to renew my subscription to blah, blah, blah. I do not want to do the routine maintenance because it is not yet routine. Every time I dedicate a moment to the business side of a spiritual direction practice, it feels new, uncharted and hard. I feel incapable of doing the ‘right’ things that are needed because I don’t really know that I’m good at this yet.
I get drawn into everybody’s suggestion and advertisement about what steps to take and how to avoid common pitfalls and what to look for and how to grow followers and …and…and
And so I get this very heavy internal wave of resistance to sitting down at all; and consequently, I do not write or connect with you. Maybe it’s just winter and I’m cold and want to hide away until it feels warmer and friendlier outside. That certainly seems to be true today because the sun is out, it is relatively warm, and I have managed to drag myself over to the desktop and reach out in this post.
You know what’s been fun for me though? Starting the year with some organization off of the computer. I ordered a personalized planner to better suit my personality and I have been journaling about the year’s goals and aspects of my life and career that are really calling for some of my attention and focus right now. That’s been lovely. I have re-arranged my home office furniture and hung up new pictures on the walls.
And today I feel like I am finally wanting to come back out of my home-shell. I feel distant from this blog but distance makes the heart grow fonder and that is true for me and you here, dear reader. Our distance has made me want to show up in your inbox today and check in.
Hello, by the way. How are you? What’s been fun for you lately? or what’s been hard? I’d love to hear from you.